The Child

He came out to play
who I never invited
sobbing in a pool of mud
for a slight frown of notice.

Years of being unloved
unattended and uncared for
Yelling into void
and befriending blackness.

The arm guards melt in the heat
of fatigue and resentment
Down went the tears
out of bruises and frustration.

When he spoke,
I stopped listening.
When he cried,
I started to judge.

I teared him to shreds for the fragility.
And I was the one taking all the hurt.

Could you stay silent for a while?
For now this is enough.
Don't push me away
he said
You're everything that I've got.

Been here since I was 5,
with lots of baggage
called goodbyes and regrets
too much of them drives me crazy
no matter how hard I suppress.

Into my arms
I took him.
Sorry for not loving you enough
I know too much about the world,
but still too little about how you exist.

Once and for all,
let me acknowledge you
let me set you free so you can grow up
to see the nature of reality
things have changed and
they're full of hopes.

One blink into his little eyes
goes into my own when I am awake.
It's me the inner child that's shivering
whose body that fear overtook.

Let's take some deep breaths
You are safe here
No need to run
Here is home
Home is now.

Open your eyes
and step forward
to me, to the light
this is the only path.
Everywhere else is falsity
it will trap you in the ugly pasts.

Follow the sun
Touch the light
Dance peacefully
beneath the sky.

The whole universe is resting upon you,
can you see that?