Just Walk Away

(Version 1)
Pretty sure that you resent me
for ignoring your texts and calls
I stay in touch with my fantasy
but away from most of all

I admit to barely surviving
Walking up is just too much
Not a single day passing by
Without me getting fucked up

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Oh, I'm eaten up by my own damn thoughts
which turn out suicidal more often than not
I'm way too good at showing the world all the pretty sides
While crying alone
Oh, it's never your fault
when you walk away.

(Version 2)
I was not and will never be
there for you or anyone in need
I loathe myself for this selfishness
this shit sucks all my energy

It's an ongoing battle
where I lose myself most days
I eat a lot and drink even more
with my best friend, alcohol

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Oh, I'm eaten up by my own damn thoughts
which turn out suicidal more often than not
I'm way too good at showing the world all the pretty sides
while crying alone
Oh, it's never your fault
when you walk away.

Every night comes back and haunts me
with the fear of losing my mom
and my little brother whom I never give enough love for
Why it's me and the fucking disease
every month it comes once or twice
it's creeping up on everyone
secretly ruining their lives

(Chorus)
Oh, sorry for failing the trust of yours
I know I'm not a good friend or one at all
Oh, please forgive me for breaking all the promises I made
Yes, they're my mistakes.
Oh, you should walk away
There's no reason to stay.